Showing posts with label Nenceeism. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Nenceeism. Show all posts
Saturday, December 22, 2012
The corner
Friday, August 26, 2011
One of those days
All parents who has kids would agree that they would have good days and bad days.
Today was a bad day.
I invited my new friend and her 2,5 years old son for a play date in our house today. I was excited, I thought would be nice to have people come over. she would be my first guest. I am new to this island and of course I am trying to make friends, also a good change for day to day activity for Evan. But all ended up with a big drama.
Evan had a nonstop bad behaviour. He was constantly being rude, disobedient, out-of-control the whole time they were in the house. He kicked, threw toys, pushed, didn't share toys, didn't share food, snatched, threw tantrum over a biscuits, and so on and so on, the list is going on.
The poor little boy was scared of Evan and wanted to go home. The mother was good. She kept make nice conversation, and tried to convince me that I don't need to worry about Evan's behaviour over them. But I felt super bad. I would not happy if I was in her position. I am not sure if they wanted to come back and make friends with us.
Evan has never been like this. He was such a polite-sweet-shy little boy back in Perth. As soon as we moved out and travelled, he hardly talk to anybody else than us (me and hubby). Instead, he did raspberry. He also hardly violent to anyone else before, he usually happy to have someone else in the house and show off his toys. So all of this violent behaviour is new. I was shocked. He was so self-centred, ignored whatever I said and made a scene the whole time this morning.
That was an endless - tiring 1.15 hours I've ever experienced in my own home.
He actually had some scenes every time we went to a play group, and the last one was in the swimming pool for his very first swimming lesson yesterday. I got a feeling that no other mothers wanted to talk to me for having a very naughty boy. I almost can hear other mums chatters to each other saying "that's the mum with a boy who likes to throw toys. You should be careful with that boy, he is naughty and violent!"
I am literally in tears as I type. I wanted to explode in a fit of frustration, anger, guilt, and compassion. I almost lost it. In this moment, I wanted him to be very, very far away from me. I don't want to take him to any mother's group, play group, swimming lesson, etc anymore. But I also felt so sorry for him.
I remember back in 2009 when Evan still only about 9 months old, I wrote this post. It's upsetting that my hope didn't come true. That Evan is now bullying other kids. And I felt I am such a failure. Now I can only hope I can help him to be a better boy. I hope I can be a better mum for him. I hope this is only a phase that he has to go through in his toddler life, that will go away easily and not getting worst.
Today was a bad day.
I invited my new friend and her 2,5 years old son for a play date in our house today. I was excited, I thought would be nice to have people come over. she would be my first guest. I am new to this island and of course I am trying to make friends, also a good change for day to day activity for Evan. But all ended up with a big drama.
Evan had a nonstop bad behaviour. He was constantly being rude, disobedient, out-of-control the whole time they were in the house. He kicked, threw toys, pushed, didn't share toys, didn't share food, snatched, threw tantrum over a biscuits, and so on and so on, the list is going on.
The poor little boy was scared of Evan and wanted to go home. The mother was good. She kept make nice conversation, and tried to convince me that I don't need to worry about Evan's behaviour over them. But I felt super bad. I would not happy if I was in her position. I am not sure if they wanted to come back and make friends with us.
Evan has never been like this. He was such a polite-sweet-shy little boy back in Perth. As soon as we moved out and travelled, he hardly talk to anybody else than us (me and hubby). Instead, he did raspberry. He also hardly violent to anyone else before, he usually happy to have someone else in the house and show off his toys. So all of this violent behaviour is new. I was shocked. He was so self-centred, ignored whatever I said and made a scene the whole time this morning.
That was an endless - tiring 1.15 hours I've ever experienced in my own home.
He actually had some scenes every time we went to a play group, and the last one was in the swimming pool for his very first swimming lesson yesterday. I got a feeling that no other mothers wanted to talk to me for having a very naughty boy. I almost can hear other mums chatters to each other saying "that's the mum with a boy who likes to throw toys. You should be careful with that boy, he is naughty and violent!"
I am literally in tears as I type. I wanted to explode in a fit of frustration, anger, guilt, and compassion. I almost lost it. In this moment, I wanted him to be very, very far away from me. I don't want to take him to any mother's group, play group, swimming lesson, etc anymore. But I also felt so sorry for him.
I remember back in 2009 when Evan still only about 9 months old, I wrote this post. It's upsetting that my hope didn't come true. That Evan is now bullying other kids. And I felt I am such a failure. Now I can only hope I can help him to be a better boy. I hope I can be a better mum for him. I hope this is only a phase that he has to go through in his toddler life, that will go away easily and not getting worst.
Wednesday, August 10, 2011
Today
Had a quiet morning when the boys off the house for work and daycare. Got the books out of the boxes - finally! Tidy and washed the dishes, IG-ing, and it was suddenly 11am! And I had plenty more to do!
So I got out the house, walked down to the main street. Nice and cool breeze. I walked as I also chatted to my mum on my mobile! :) She said I should be healthier that I am now walk more, which probably right. I went to chemist to get antihistamine, went to 3 stores to find floating ring for Evan. Walked back, got in to a butcher shop, got out with 3 kg chicken and bacon. I walked up the hill back to the house, exhausted and hungry. It was 12 pm.
Made my lunch : double portion of Mie Sedap with diced tomatoes and celery.
Had my lunch whilst checking and replying emails and (of course)IG-ing. An hour past, I washed the dishes and back hit the road - walked down to the supermaket. Brought back milk and juice - total 4 litre, and fruits and vegies with total 4 kg. I walked up to the house totally worn out.
Then I harvested basil leaves from the garden for dinner tonight. I suddenly feel a bit fresh from the freshness and the smell of the leaves.
I sat down in from of Sitobi, wrote this blog, chatted away on YM, and it's 3pm. Maybe it's my time to had my nana nap! Or no, I better sweep the floor, made up Evan's bed, have shower, and cook dinner! (*sigh*)
And the work continues when the boys come home. Never never ending....
So I got out the house, walked down to the main street. Nice and cool breeze. I walked as I also chatted to my mum on my mobile! :) She said I should be healthier that I am now walk more, which probably right. I went to chemist to get antihistamine, went to 3 stores to find floating ring for Evan. Walked back, got in to a butcher shop, got out with 3 kg chicken and bacon. I walked up the hill back to the house, exhausted and hungry. It was 12 pm.
Made my lunch : double portion of Mie Sedap with diced tomatoes and celery.
Had my lunch whilst checking and replying emails and (of course)IG-ing. An hour past, I washed the dishes and back hit the road - walked down to the supermaket. Brought back milk and juice - total 4 litre, and fruits and vegies with total 4 kg. I walked up to the house totally worn out.
Then I harvested basil leaves from the garden for dinner tonight. I suddenly feel a bit fresh from the freshness and the smell of the leaves.
I sat down in from of Sitobi, wrote this blog, chatted away on YM, and it's 3pm. Maybe it's my time to had my nana nap! Or no, I better sweep the floor, made up Evan's bed, have shower, and cook dinner! (*sigh*)
And the work continues when the boys come home. Never never ending....
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
junk
It's finally time to move to the house we going to live in. All the boxes and furniture were out of the blue container, and now the house full of boxes. We moved from spacious 4 bedrooms house in Perth into cozy 3 bedroom house. We kept some our belonging in the storage, in Perth. But still, we brought too many things here in to the island. After a week, the boxes still here and there in and out the house, endless unpacking....
It is quite frustrating to see the house messy and desperately want to unpack everything as soon as possible, but it's just to many thing to unpack and no place/space for them. This is the time when I think we have too much un-necessary stuff and regret that we have them. I kept saying to myself every time I open a box and unwrapped the paper, "oh... another junk" or "we don't need this" or "why do I keep this thing?" or "i should have thrown this years ago", and it going on and on and on...
I and hubby are on the same boat over treating 'stuff'. We like to keep 'stuff'. Old, broken, dirty, unnecessary, you name it. No particular reason. We just don't like to throw them. When I think more, the most possible reason is probably just for the sake of sentimental memories. So you can imagine two people have the same odd hobbies who live as nomads, have to put up with one of another stuff every time we move. MADNESS !
Hubby is better than me in some area, though. He would easily throw away his old clothes and shoes, except the one he really really like and has good sentimental history (which are not too many). But he keep almost everything related to computer, gadget, games, DVDs and CDs. Also ornaments and pictures.
As for me, I rarely throw away my clothes. I still have my jeans I wore 12 years ago, I still have t-shirt i bought in high school. I didn't remember ever throw bags, shoes, and accessories/jewellery. So I got dozens of shoes and bags, accessories and jewellery neatly saved in dozens of boxes. They are definitely still wearable, still in a good condition, because I always treated them well. But no doubt lots of them are old, out of date, and I might never wore/use them again. But I kept them anyway! Crazy,... I know ! :D Besides this, I also still keep my old diaries, photo albums/pictures, letters, and cards from many many years ago. Total crazy? I agree :D
Good thing is I and hubby never argue or complain, we are peacefully willing to put up with each others mountain of junk we collected.
We totally understand each other on this matter. :)
It is quite frustrating to see the house messy and desperately want to unpack everything as soon as possible, but it's just to many thing to unpack and no place/space for them. This is the time when I think we have too much un-necessary stuff and regret that we have them. I kept saying to myself every time I open a box and unwrapped the paper, "oh... another junk" or "we don't need this" or "why do I keep this thing?" or "i should have thrown this years ago", and it going on and on and on...
I and hubby are on the same boat over treating 'stuff'. We like to keep 'stuff'. Old, broken, dirty, unnecessary, you name it. No particular reason. We just don't like to throw them. When I think more, the most possible reason is probably just for the sake of sentimental memories. So you can imagine two people have the same odd hobbies who live as nomads, have to put up with one of another stuff every time we move. MADNESS !
Hubby is better than me in some area, though. He would easily throw away his old clothes and shoes, except the one he really really like and has good sentimental history (which are not too many). But he keep almost everything related to computer, gadget, games, DVDs and CDs. Also ornaments and pictures.
As for me, I rarely throw away my clothes. I still have my jeans I wore 12 years ago, I still have t-shirt i bought in high school. I didn't remember ever throw bags, shoes, and accessories/jewellery. So I got dozens of shoes and bags, accessories and jewellery neatly saved in dozens of boxes. They are definitely still wearable, still in a good condition, because I always treated them well. But no doubt lots of them are old, out of date, and I might never wore/use them again. But I kept them anyway! Crazy,... I know ! :D Besides this, I also still keep my old diaries, photo albums/pictures, letters, and cards from many many years ago. Total crazy? I agree :D
Good thing is I and hubby never argue or complain, we are peacefully willing to put up with each others mountain of junk we collected.
We totally understand each other on this matter. :)
Monday, January 24, 2011
Worries
As I remember myself as a young - single girl, I was such an adventurous girl who didn't have fear of anything. I did not have worry about almost anything. It's funny to realise that now is a drama queen if related with "worrying about something".I think it all started since I had a child. The feeling of being responsible to your own child and his well being has extraordinary impact in my life. I became a worrier person that I've ever been. Living overseas without close friends and family doesn't help. Worry and tense is my brain's daily intake (poor brain). I'm tired, but can't help it.
Now only about four days until I fly only with the little boy to Jtown. Do not mention all the stress I got from this coming trip. It started a month before, almost ruin our new year celebration. Now I got horrible-painful pimple in my eye, seems everything goes against me.
I need to relax, but really really don't know how :(
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Lyric of the day
Calm down and take a deep breath that's what I really need now.
Listen to this song is miraculously makes me a little bit better.
*********
Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything
Hold your own
And know your name
Go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way.
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way)
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own)
Hell no reason go on and scream (Know your name)
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
(Details in Fabric - by Jason Mraz )
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up
If it's a broken part, replace it
If it’s a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it
And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything will be fine
Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
And everything
Everything will be fine
Everything
Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?
Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Everything
Hold your own
And know your name
Go your own way
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)
Hold your own
Know your name
Go your own way.
Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own)
Are the things that make you panic (Know your name)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine? (Go your own way)
Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own)
Hell no reason go on and scream (Know your name)
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing
Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold
(Details in Fabric - by Jason Mraz )
Sunday, January 2, 2011
365 Days Project
My new project this year....
Another one who needs determination and consistency. So I hope I can make it to the end.
I will make a visual history of my life by taking photos everyday for the whole year!
thanks to lil' sister who introduced me to this project (!^@#@&@$*@*!!!)
I think I'm more enthusiastic than her now!
By doing this I hope it will bring lots of positive mind and results. That I will have more understanding on what is important in my life, I have motivation to make my day more colourful and useful, that I can appreciate the simple, everyday things that make life beautiful, and to make me a better photographer too :)
Feels free to check out my DAILY PHOTOS and leave some comments :)
Another one who needs determination and consistency. So I hope I can make it to the end.
I will make a visual history of my life by taking photos everyday for the whole year!
thanks to lil' sister who introduced me to this project (!^@#@&@$*@*!!!)
I think I'm more enthusiastic than her now!
By doing this I hope it will bring lots of positive mind and results. That I will have more understanding on what is important in my life, I have motivation to make my day more colourful and useful, that I can appreciate the simple, everyday things that make life beautiful, and to make me a better photographer too :)
Feels free to check out my DAILY PHOTOS and leave some comments :)
Saturday, November 20, 2010
all important stuff
dear oh dear... I've been super busy lately so i hardly have time to blog! So many thing has happened, so many things i want to talk about, so little spare time. Here i go doing another short cut. Write everything in one entry.
* my little sister (who is not so little anymore) is here, visiting us since 29 oct. Cant believe she is really here. So we have a lot to catch up and do and shop and sight seeing, and many more. it's fun and good to have company in daily days. Little boy is very fond to her as well. He calls her Titi.. (from auntie). She is surely the main reason i abandoned the blog lately though.
* hubby went for a business trip to Amman for 5 days. i didn't look forward for long hour flight, but i wish i could go too. Thought would be good to go back there, as I realised i still have a few good friends there to visit, and that we had a lot of good memories in that city, including the birth of our boy!
* Whilst hubby is on the business trip, Evan had a bit of runny nose at one day, then a bit of cough another day, then the next day had unusual shorth-hard breath. He was still active and eat well, but a bit unsettled. so i took him to doctor concerning his breath. It was sunday, so i had to take him to a GP after hour in the hospital. By my surprise, GP advised me to take Evan to ER to have more treatment. I started to worried, especially coz hubby was not back in town yet. But tried to remain calm. It's the first experience for him and me to be at the hospital. He was pretty good the whole time, except when when we have to give him ventolin and oxigen. He was good when having chest x-ray and taking medicine syrup. After 4 hours, doctor decided for him to stay in the hospital that night for more observation and treatment. I was worried but agreed. Thankfully hubby finally landed in town and rushed to hospital to see us. we were all very tired. Hubby just landed from very long hour flight, and i didnt prepare anything to stay the night in the hospital. lucky that Cindy is home. She prepared everything i and Evan need that night. It was a sleepless night. I got very tired the next morning. Evan got better in the morning and doctor allowed him to go home. Apparently he had a mild asthma broncilitis. He treated with antibiotic and ventolin at home. It was certainly a frightening experience. Glad it's over.
* I had my first job interview after three years absence from world of office work. Realised that i dont have many descent formal clothing anymore. my waist has changed drastically so that all my formal pants got too big or too small. All of my formal tops were out of date. The interview made me panic, not only because it was hard to find right outfit, also because it seems too long since my brain used with professional office work stuff. I didn't have any clue about what to do and say anymore. Another thing was i had lot of thing to do on the same day, as it was hubby's bday and we were planning to give him small surprise celebration. It was a super busy long tiring day!, it was last thursday, 11/11.
the interview went ok, i guess. We'll see what happen. I don't expect much as they are now looking for a full timer, while i want a part time job. But I'm excited thinking to go back to work!
* it was hubby's 40th birthday last thursday. it's a special number so that i really want to give him special birthday celebration for him.
That day was the busiest ever. I got to find a present, party supplies, cake, candle, attend job interview, and cook chicken noodle for the first time! Glad to have lil sister's companion to do all the preparation. It wasn't a big fancy party, but simple and quite special. the most important think is the bday boy was happy. And the chicken noodle was satisfying.
* I turned 37 yesterday. we had no birthday celebration. But that's what i wanted. Instead, i had a great 2 days off from house and kitchen chores. Spent the whole 2 days playing, relaxing, swimming, sun bathing with lil' sister and lil' boy (day one, on day two he was at school), and had yummy dinner. It was special. everybody's happy, i was happy too. I didn't feel different as i got a year older... but i certainly thankful and greatful for everything i've got and achieved.
* my little sister (who is not so little anymore) is here, visiting us since 29 oct. Cant believe she is really here. So we have a lot to catch up and do and shop and sight seeing, and many more. it's fun and good to have company in daily days. Little boy is very fond to her as well. He calls her Titi.. (from auntie). She is surely the main reason i abandoned the blog lately though.
* hubby went for a business trip to Amman for 5 days. i didn't look forward for long hour flight, but i wish i could go too. Thought would be good to go back there, as I realised i still have a few good friends there to visit, and that we had a lot of good memories in that city, including the birth of our boy!
* Whilst hubby is on the business trip, Evan had a bit of runny nose at one day, then a bit of cough another day, then the next day had unusual shorth-hard breath. He was still active and eat well, but a bit unsettled. so i took him to doctor concerning his breath. It was sunday, so i had to take him to a GP after hour in the hospital. By my surprise, GP advised me to take Evan to ER to have more treatment. I started to worried, especially coz hubby was not back in town yet. But tried to remain calm. It's the first experience for him and me to be at the hospital. He was pretty good the whole time, except when when we have to give him ventolin and oxigen. He was good when having chest x-ray and taking medicine syrup. After 4 hours, doctor decided for him to stay in the hospital that night for more observation and treatment. I was worried but agreed. Thankfully hubby finally landed in town and rushed to hospital to see us. we were all very tired. Hubby just landed from very long hour flight, and i didnt prepare anything to stay the night in the hospital. lucky that Cindy is home. She prepared everything i and Evan need that night. It was a sleepless night. I got very tired the next morning. Evan got better in the morning and doctor allowed him to go home. Apparently he had a mild asthma broncilitis. He treated with antibiotic and ventolin at home. It was certainly a frightening experience. Glad it's over.
* I had my first job interview after three years absence from world of office work. Realised that i dont have many descent formal clothing anymore. my waist has changed drastically so that all my formal pants got too big or too small. All of my formal tops were out of date. The interview made me panic, not only because it was hard to find right outfit, also because it seems too long since my brain used with professional office work stuff. I didn't have any clue about what to do and say anymore. Another thing was i had lot of thing to do on the same day, as it was hubby's bday and we were planning to give him small surprise celebration. It was a super busy long tiring day!, it was last thursday, 11/11.
the interview went ok, i guess. We'll see what happen. I don't expect much as they are now looking for a full timer, while i want a part time job. But I'm excited thinking to go back to work!
* it was hubby's 40th birthday last thursday. it's a special number so that i really want to give him special birthday celebration for him.
That day was the busiest ever. I got to find a present, party supplies, cake, candle, attend job interview, and cook chicken noodle for the first time! Glad to have lil sister's companion to do all the preparation. It wasn't a big fancy party, but simple and quite special. the most important think is the bday boy was happy. And the chicken noodle was satisfying.
* I turned 37 yesterday. we had no birthday celebration. But that's what i wanted. Instead, i had a great 2 days off from house and kitchen chores. Spent the whole 2 days playing, relaxing, swimming, sun bathing with lil' sister and lil' boy (day one, on day two he was at school), and had yummy dinner. It was special. everybody's happy, i was happy too. I didn't feel different as i got a year older... but i certainly thankful and greatful for everything i've got and achieved.
* It was our 5th anniversary on 19th of November. As little sister is here, we turned her to be a babysitter that night so we could go out just two of us on a very rare date. Yes, we didn't have time to go on a date anymore since Evan was born. We got off the house as soon as Evan went to sleep. Nothing much still open after 9pm,so we only had coffee and sweets in one of the restaurant at the rockingham foreshore. It was a nice night weather that night. Warm and the moon was full, perfect time to stroll along the beach at night. So it was very good to have a quiet time just two of us out of the house, even only for 2 hours.
updated 24 nov 2010 : I didn't get the job... :(
Next plan is undergoing....
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Today
This is Evan this morning - on his trial childcare day. He was pretty excited with his new school bag, and he knew he was going to school. What he didn't know was that I would leave him there for one hour - as a trial before he really go to the "school" next Tuesday. It went quite OK,.. well...it actually went as expected. I stayed for a while watched him playing. He was overwhelmed watching many kids around and so many new toys to touch and play with. When he looked a bit settle I told him that I will go to toilet, and he started to cry and clinging on me. I tried to explain that I won't be long and will be back. But he cried harder. Then the heartbreaking drama started. The teacher picked him up and I should go away. He cried louder and screamed 'mum... mum....mum!"
Dear oh dear....
I didn't know what to do when I got back to the car. Then I decided to go to the post office to post a dvd to my friend in Sydney and did a bit of groceries shopping. Half hour has passed, then I called the centre. They said he was settled after about 5 minutes. All good. However Evan has already started to cry and wanted to leave the playing room when I got back to the centre to pick him up. But looked happy to see me again.
I took him to library to do some crafting with other kids, then we had lunch in Mc Donald for a treat. :)
Friday, May 14, 2010
Love Tommy
Someone gave us a portable GPS car navigation system for our return to Australia in August last year. At first I am skeptical about the function of this little 'thing'. Not sure if it's reliable and helpful. I still prefer to use road map. We set our foot in Perth in September, where everything are new. We didn't know the way to anywhere! None of us ever lived here. The GPS was safely stay in our suitcase. What we did first was buying a big heavy road map and use it to out and about.Until we settled in the new house and have emptied all suitcases, I just realised that we have this little gadget (i'll call it tommy - to be easy) safe and sound in the box, unopened. We finally turn it on, set it, and put it in the car, but still, we hardly use it. I don't remember when did we first use it, but out of the blue I became a big fan of tommy.
Tommy is such a smart little navigator. Not only it always choose the fastest route, it also shows lots of information such as how many km will it takes, beeping alarm if we about to pass speeding camera, tells you when you are speeding, the nearest fuel station, etc. It also very easy to use, clear instruction, clear touch screen.
I use it a lot in the last 2 months where I have to drive to places I never been to. It work out great!
I drove 40-60 km without any hassle. Never get lost, no confusion, arrived and get home on time. It's quite amazing, really. I can go on and on and on about how amazing Tommy is, but I would sounds like a sales girl. What I want to say is just this little gadget has never let me down so far. It's like a little magic box that can tell you everything about streets. Highly recommended for people who live in a new place like us.
Talking about technology, Internet connection on mobile phone is another one that I adore. It probably nothing but a tool for chatting and browse unimportant things, but at some stage it can be helpful when you know how to use it. One day I was driving by my self to find a place where I can print out a document. It was urgent, and it was on Saturday (limited shops are open on weekend here). Library was extremely busy, they couldn't do it. I didn't know where else to go, the only thing I know is a place called Snap who might be able to do printing. What I did then I google it via internet on my handphone. I got the phone number and address. I called and they're open. As I don't have any idea how to get there, I used Tommy to navigate me there. My problem solved without lots of hassle.
Now I love Tommy. I have to have tommy in the car so I feel safe, at least something to rely on when I get lost. But if you talk about my mobile phone, it's my second boyfriend (after my hubby). It has to be with me everytime and everywhere. It's my best buddy! :) Btw, I got GPS on my mobile too, but it takes the battery and not sure if it can be reliable.
Ah well, what a technology era we live in now.....
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Four
A friend reminded me about today. I would completely forgot about how special today is. Today is an anniversary of my blog! Yes I started this blog 13 May 2006, exactly 4 years ago.It's interesting to see that the layout had changed many times (unfortunately I didn't keep the record), I guess I'm not easily satisfy with what I have, always want to be better and learn new things. The way I write is different too. I must try to write in Bahasa Indonesia again sometimes. Not sure if my english improved, though. It's not me to assess. The topics moves from time to time, reflecting how colourful the journey of my life. The frequency is up and down, depending on a lot of factors. But I confess in the last year I had not much time blogging since facebook come into my daily life.
But today, this blog still exist. I'm glad I started it. Not many people following it (it's not my intention anyway), but it has a few loyal readers, which i think made this blog special. Thank you to one of them for the reminder about today's special day. :)
But today, this blog still exist. I'm glad I started it. Not many people following it (it's not my intention anyway), but it has a few loyal readers, which i think made this blog special. Thank you to one of them for the reminder about today's special day. :)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Why
Why there have to be dirts. Why there have to be dust, why there have to be moulds, why there have to be all disgusting things in this world. They are no use other than give me a pain! They are the most useless thing in the world, i hate their existence!!
And why the rug is shedding so much, why there are so many kind of bugs, and why am i the one who seems to care.
Just one of the 'joy' of having a nice big house without helpers....(dengan kata lain: jeritan hati IRT/FTM)... hiks...!
And why the rug is shedding so much, why there are so many kind of bugs, and why am i the one who seems to care.
Just one of the 'joy' of having a nice big house without helpers....(dengan kata lain: jeritan hati IRT/FTM)... hiks...!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
peaceful time
It's 11pm. Kitchen is clean. lounge room is tidy, all toys are in place. the house is dim, only lights from christmas tree is twingling. Last cycle of the dishwasher just finished. The boys are sleeping. I'm full and content. It's quiet, no sounds.... the most peaceful time in the day.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Something to play with
Just an update of new toys I recently crazy about
* Canon EOS 450D - I finally bought it. But it's not on my hand yet, coz I didn't buy it here. The price here is ridiculously expensive (3x more expensive). So I asked Dad to buy it for me, and i'll pick it up later, in Jakarta, hopefully soon, as planned. Can't wait to play with it.
* Scrapblog.com -Love this. I've been trying to make the real scrapbook for four years and have no result. It need lots of time, material, and equipment. But with this digital scrapbook, at least I can finally start to make one.
* epaper.kompas.com - a digital version of Kompas newspaper. Now I can read Kompas newspaper without even subscribe it, whenever, wherever I am! It's free, easy to use, and fast. They upload new issue exactly at 00:00 WIB so I practically can read it first (it's 5 hours ahead than Jakarta, here) while people in Indo still sleeping and will get and read the real issues in the morning-their time. You can even read issues from days before! Impressive!
* Facebook.com - of course, same as thousand other people in the world. It's amazing on how it could drag my memory into my life 20 years ago, how I could meet lots of old friends. I enjoyed looking at friend's photos and their status, as well as changing my own status and make comments on other's. I even quite addicted to one of the virtual e-game they have. It's sooo bad so that facebook is the first site I visited everyday and everytime I go online. But I know I'm not alone :) Wonder how long this Fb-euphoria would last.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Teary Playtime Day
Yesterday was a playgroup day. Not many of us, only 4 mothers including me. All of other mothers have 2 year old boy, and so make my baby boy the youngest. The idea is to get together so the kids can play and learn to socialise (as they were too young to be at school and too energetic to be just stay at home), while the mums can have a break from their routine and enjoy the chat and food.
My baby boy is actually can’t play and interact with the other kids much, as he is way too young than the others. However it’s good for him to get out the house once a while and see other people. He doesn’t like stranger, but it gets better since our new year holiday. Today he had lots of smile and enjoy playing with new toys.
One of us is actually new. I met the mother first at lunch with the ladies few months ago, and invited her to join us as soon as I know that she has 2 year old boy at home. We have the playgroup at her house this time. What I didn’t know is that the boy is super hyperactive. In contrary with the other boys who were quite timid. They could scream, laugh and play in a normal way. But I found the new boy is outrageously aggressive and active beyond control. He would grab toys that other boy holds. He wouldn’t let other boys play with his toys. Then suddenly he could change into a good boy when he asked other boys to play with him. But not long after the other boys would cried, and I saw the new boy hit the other boy or forcedly grabbed toys from his friends. Once I saw the new boy hit the other boy’s head with a toy-car. Then hit again with a big spoon. The other time hit with his hands many times when the other boys cornered on the sofa! Not that his mum did anything. She gave a strong voice to him to behave and once put him at the corner and smack him. But seemed he didn’t listen. The only time he cried was when his mum punished him and put him at the corner for ‘time-out’.
I’m glad he left my baby boy alone, and quite surprise that he let Evan played with his toys. He only disturb Evan when he was sleeping in his stroller, so Evan only have 45 minutes morning nap. Anyway, it was a bit scary to see a boy like that. I just only hope that I can raise Evan well so he can behave, not violent, but also can defense himself when needed. Aah.. what a hard task...!
Update:
Heard that the other boy were crying when he sleep the night after playgroup day. Seemed it was a bit traumatic for him. However his mum is willing to meet the boys again with hope that her son will learn to defense himself, and the naughty boy will learn to behave. We'll see what's going to happen. (10 Jan)
My baby boy is actually can’t play and interact with the other kids much, as he is way too young than the others. However it’s good for him to get out the house once a while and see other people. He doesn’t like stranger, but it gets better since our new year holiday. Today he had lots of smile and enjoy playing with new toys.
One of us is actually new. I met the mother first at lunch with the ladies few months ago, and invited her to join us as soon as I know that she has 2 year old boy at home. We have the playgroup at her house this time. What I didn’t know is that the boy is super hyperactive. In contrary with the other boys who were quite timid. They could scream, laugh and play in a normal way. But I found the new boy is outrageously aggressive and active beyond control. He would grab toys that other boy holds. He wouldn’t let other boys play with his toys. Then suddenly he could change into a good boy when he asked other boys to play with him. But not long after the other boys would cried, and I saw the new boy hit the other boy or forcedly grabbed toys from his friends. Once I saw the new boy hit the other boy’s head with a toy-car. Then hit again with a big spoon. The other time hit with his hands many times when the other boys cornered on the sofa! Not that his mum did anything. She gave a strong voice to him to behave and once put him at the corner and smack him. But seemed he didn’t listen. The only time he cried was when his mum punished him and put him at the corner for ‘time-out’.
I’m glad he left my baby boy alone, and quite surprise that he let Evan played with his toys. He only disturb Evan when he was sleeping in his stroller, so Evan only have 45 minutes morning nap. Anyway, it was a bit scary to see a boy like that. I just only hope that I can raise Evan well so he can behave, not violent, but also can defense himself when needed. Aah.. what a hard task...!
Update:
Heard that the other boy were crying when he sleep the night after playgroup day. Seemed it was a bit traumatic for him. However his mum is willing to meet the boys again with hope that her son will learn to defense himself, and the naughty boy will learn to behave. We'll see what's going to happen. (10 Jan)
Monday, December 22, 2008
Wake Up Call
One of my friend told me that my blog is getting uninteresting and monotous. He may be right. Lately my world isn't as big as before, my time isn't as timeless as before. May I blame facebook in this case? :) It rather took over my tiny spare time and mind lately, too. Thus I suppose I had so many happy, funny and interesting things to say other than baby's milestone.
However, I accept the critic with open mind. Between those hectic days I should make time for myself. Having fun blogging like I used to is one of them.
However, I accept the critic with open mind. Between those hectic days I should make time for myself. Having fun blogging like I used to is one of them.
Friday, October 24, 2008
out of comfort zone
I wonder what's going on when some of my friends called me recently. They asked how did I go, asked me to go out, offered help, and came to my house for a short visit. Apparently they haven't seen me for ages and started to missed me! (i'm not making this up, they told me) :)
It's probably true. I realise that my world has only been with the little boy in the last 6 months, and my house has been my only comfort zone, far from socialising world that I used to be in. After ramadhan finished I received many invitations and turned down many too. By the sound of them, I think they were concerned that I'll be a prisoner in my own house and will depress soon or later (*grin*).
Yes sometimes I wanted to go out, sometimes I get so tired and cranky. But I enjoyed being at home too. I need more time to be more confidence to bring Evan out. Need time to find right babysitter. Besides, I can go out on weekend. But my friends said it's been 6 months, and it's time to start to be mobile again.
Ah well,.... they might be right. I'll try to go out more or invite some people in so that Evan also can get used to other people. Have started last week when I went to mothers group and mall. That was good. I'll take it slowly, though and hopefully bit by bit I'll build my confidence to take him everywhere.
It's probably true. I realise that my world has only been with the little boy in the last 6 months, and my house has been my only comfort zone, far from socialising world that I used to be in. After ramadhan finished I received many invitations and turned down many too. By the sound of them, I think they were concerned that I'll be a prisoner in my own house and will depress soon or later (*grin*).
Yes sometimes I wanted to go out, sometimes I get so tired and cranky. But I enjoyed being at home too. I need more time to be more confidence to bring Evan out. Need time to find right babysitter. Besides, I can go out on weekend. But my friends said it's been 6 months, and it's time to start to be mobile again.
Ah well,.... they might be right. I'll try to go out more or invite some people in so that Evan also can get used to other people. Have started last week when I went to mothers group and mall. That was good. I'll take it slowly, though and hopefully bit by bit I'll build my confidence to take him everywhere.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
you might just knew that I...
1. smell papers. What would I do first when I open new book fresh from the store? I'll browse and smell it! Same thing with new CD covers and cards.
2. am a dreamer. Meaning: I always have dreams when I sleep. Meaning: I sleep well and tight when I dream. In contrary, I would wake up tired if I had no dream. I had a dream journal at one stage, it stopped when i was pregnant because sleep is a hard thing to do, or if I had dream it's impossible to remember.
3. like everything organised and plan ahead. I'd choose what am I going to wear a night before. I prepare my luggage at least a week before I go travelling.
4. hate cleaning, but sort of a neat freak. I can't sleep if the dishes hasn't washed. Can't stand to see stack of dirty clothes or mound of clean un-iron clothes.
5. eat noodle with rice even though I know it means double carbo-hydrate. I just love it that way.
6. like my coffee Black at home or office. Cuppa of coffee in the morning is a must, otherwise I'll turn to a zombie (had yucky decaffeinated during pregnancy). Cappuccino is the kind of coffee I'd have at the hang-out places.
7. walk around back and forth when talking on the phone (thank God for wireless and handphone)
8. am addicted to internet. Will jump up and down, wailing, and cranky without it.
9. think secret agent is the coolest job, but a doctor or a lawyer - like the one in Hollywood's tv series - is my dream job.
10. wrote diary since I was 12 year old, as a result I have more than 10 written diary. I still have them all. Only stop when I start this blog in 2005.
11. keep old handwritten cards and letters.
12. hate to be alone, but annoyed to be with around people too long. Just like to have my time alone sometimes.
2. am a dreamer. Meaning: I always have dreams when I sleep. Meaning: I sleep well and tight when I dream. In contrary, I would wake up tired if I had no dream. I had a dream journal at one stage, it stopped when i was pregnant because sleep is a hard thing to do, or if I had dream it's impossible to remember.
3. like everything organised and plan ahead. I'd choose what am I going to wear a night before. I prepare my luggage at least a week before I go travelling.
4. hate cleaning, but sort of a neat freak. I can't sleep if the dishes hasn't washed. Can't stand to see stack of dirty clothes or mound of clean un-iron clothes.
5. eat noodle with rice even though I know it means double carbo-hydrate. I just love it that way.
6. like my coffee Black at home or office. Cuppa of coffee in the morning is a must, otherwise I'll turn to a zombie (had yucky decaffeinated during pregnancy). Cappuccino is the kind of coffee I'd have at the hang-out places.
7. walk around back and forth when talking on the phone (thank God for wireless and handphone)
8. am addicted to internet. Will jump up and down, wailing, and cranky without it.
9. think secret agent is the coolest job, but a doctor or a lawyer - like the one in Hollywood's tv series - is my dream job.
10. wrote diary since I was 12 year old, as a result I have more than 10 written diary. I still have them all. Only stop when I start this blog in 2005.
11. keep old handwritten cards and letters.
12. hate to be alone, but annoyed to be with around people too long. Just like to have my time alone sometimes.
Friday, September 12, 2008
The Baby and I
This little boy turns 5 month old today. Where's the time flies?! Well, I know exactly where and when it flies, as days sometimes went so slow for me. What sort of day I normally have? Hard to tell. They are full of up and down. There are days when the baby is sweet, easy, and happy, but there are difficult days when he cry and cry, screaming and kicking, doesn't want to sleep and want to be carried around all day.
I try to talk Indonesian as much as I could, even sing Indonesian children songs. With hope he will be bilingual. As I read and sing him some English songs too, I just realise that I've learnt more than 20 English children song in the last 2 months. From all songs, I Love You, You Love Me (theme song from Barney TV Show) and Burung Kakak Tua was his favorite songs, kind of songs that can calm him down, distract him from whatever he was doing, stop him from crying, and put him to sleep. But recently he switch Burung Kakak Tua to Cicak Cicak di Dinding! :D
Hubby and I surprised that he understands Ciluk-Ba better than Peek-A Boo. :) He will smile happily whenever he hear word Ciluk-Ba. I guess this make this become his fav game.
I'm glad that our TV subscription has lots of kids channel. I usually tune in Disney and Jim Jam channel. But only Jim Jam has all shows suits to babies. It has Barney, Thomas and Friends, Bob the Builders, Pingu, Igloo-gloo, etc. Alas, there is no pocoyo anywhere. I don't know if this is normal, but my baby has already aware of the existence of TV since he was 2 month old. And now he will giggle and move his hand and feet frantically everytime he watch Barney. His head will look for the TV whenever he hear the theme song of Thomas and Friends and Bob the Builders. Pingu also become his favorite lately.
In detail here is what my baby gained and developed last month.
His stomach has grown bigger so he doesn't need to feed so often. He had four or five bottles of milk a day. Few weeks ago he gained a new talent which was rolling over. He lifts his head and shoulders high, using his arms for support when lay on his tummy. He started to roll over from his back to his front, or vice versa. Although sometimes this upset him because he have to use his hand to support his body when at the same time he want to put things on his hand to his mouth. The other exciting thing was that he started to eat rice cereal, just once a day. Doctor worried he will not like it or will have difficulty swallowing as eating with spoon is different than sucking the milk from a teat. But the fact was he didn't have any difficulty at all. He was just enjoy it, excited, and cried as we didn't put the spoon in his mouth quick enough, and even cried to have some more!
He also now able to reach out and grab things, everything, including my hair! Once he wraps his hands around something, he'll study it then put it straight into his mouth. He always excited to see flying objects, such as musical mobile, but everything flying on top of him will make he madly excited. He also can play with his own hands and feet. So cute. One day I realise it's strangely quiet in the bedroom. So I look in, only to discover that he was amusing himself by playing with his toes. He was also wanted to be propped up or held in a sitting position. His back and neck get stronger when then one day I found him sitting without back support on his rocking chair!
I noticed he got more selective about people and surrounding. He used to smile and friendly to everyone he met, and now began to be choosy. We went out to dinner with friends few times just to find him over tired as he was too excited to see new things and couldn't sleep. When a stranger picked him up, he will look, then think, then pout, then cried! (*sigh*)
I am now excited to know what talent he will gain, what surprise he will give, and how big he will grow this month.
Can say my lifestyle has changed drastically. It wasn't easy to adjust. There were times I got so stress and frustrated. It took around 4 months to get used to this new lifestyle. I'm now understand that I can't be so mobile as before. I can't go to meet different groups and spend unlimited time with them. I can't go to malls and supermarket whenever I want anymore. When I'm in malls or supermarket I can't just stroll away and spend time as long as I want. I have to be quick quick quick. Only go to necessary shops, and not to waste so much time thinking what to buy, or not to waste time to bargain away. Sit back and enjoy a cup of coffee at a cafe is out of my dictionary now, at least at this stage. However I think I adjust quite well now. As the baby growing and I get my health better, I enjoy motherhood better too.
Thankfully I can have part-time maid here, so at least someone can do the hard work cleaning this big house. It would be perfect if my maid can also be a nanny, so I can leave the baby with her when I do my own thing outside the house sometimes. But the baby didn't get along well with her. I don't think I need a full time nanny since I don't work. I wish i had part-time nanny so at least I can do my things during weekdays like to go to pilates or beading class again. Talking about having my own time, hubby is so understanding giving me time to do my own things on weekend when he can be at home taking care the baby. I can use one day on weekend for few hours to go to malls, meet up some friends, or have pedicure or Thai massage on that occasions. Thai massage was great, btw. ;) However sometimes I prefer to be just spend my weekend with my two boys.
So here I am taking care the baby everyday (Hubby of course helps when he is at home), from A to Z, from feeding, bathing, changing nappy, putting him to bed, to playing and entertaining. A friend said that I am lucky to be a full time mum. I know now that he is right. I have privilege to witness him grow and develop day by day. I might be too attach to him now, so I don't think I have a heart to leave the baby with a nanny! Or maybe he will refuse to be taken care by anyone else but me or hubby, which will be a Big problem. Anyhow I am too tired to think of anything to avoid that problem.
Talking about the baby,... he is growing well. He must be about 8 kg and more than 70 cm tall now. He is more aware of and responsive to new things, active, and probably very active! Smile and laugh a lot, but cry a lot too sometimes. Everyday is a challenge. He often change his habits or suddenly gain new skills. I have to be fully alert and aware so I can keep up!
Last month was also when he started to have routine. It's not always the same, but in average his schedule is like this:
Last month was also when he started to have routine. It's not always the same, but in average his schedule is like this:
- 7 am = awake, play in the cot until I finish shower
- 8 am = watch TV, (while I have breakfast)
- 9 am = bath
- 10 am = nap
- 11 am = play or watch TV
- 12 pm = feeding - milk, then play
- 2 pm = nap
- 3 pm = play
- 4 pm = feeding - rice cereal, then strolling in or out the house
- 5 pm = bath
- 5.30 = feeding - milk
- 6 pm = sleep
- 3 am = feeding - milk, then back to sleep
I try to talk Indonesian as much as I could, even sing Indonesian children songs. With hope he will be bilingual. As I read and sing him some English songs too, I just realise that I've learnt more than 20 English children song in the last 2 months. From all songs, I Love You, You Love Me (theme song from Barney TV Show) and Burung Kakak Tua was his favorite songs, kind of songs that can calm him down, distract him from whatever he was doing, stop him from crying, and put him to sleep. But recently he switch Burung Kakak Tua to Cicak Cicak di Dinding! :D
Hubby and I surprised that he understands Ciluk-Ba better than Peek-A Boo. :) He will smile happily whenever he hear word Ciluk-Ba. I guess this make this become his fav game.
I'm glad that our TV subscription has lots of kids channel. I usually tune in Disney and Jim Jam channel. But only Jim Jam has all shows suits to babies. It has Barney, Thomas and Friends, Bob the Builders, Pingu, Igloo-gloo, etc. Alas, there is no pocoyo anywhere. I don't know if this is normal, but my baby has already aware of the existence of TV since he was 2 month old. And now he will giggle and move his hand and feet frantically everytime he watch Barney. His head will look for the TV whenever he hear the theme song of Thomas and Friends and Bob the Builders. Pingu also become his favorite lately.
In detail here is what my baby gained and developed last month.
His stomach has grown bigger so he doesn't need to feed so often. He had four or five bottles of milk a day. Few weeks ago he gained a new talent which was rolling over. He lifts his head and shoulders high, using his arms for support when lay on his tummy. He started to roll over from his back to his front, or vice versa. Although sometimes this upset him because he have to use his hand to support his body when at the same time he want to put things on his hand to his mouth. The other exciting thing was that he started to eat rice cereal, just once a day. Doctor worried he will not like it or will have difficulty swallowing as eating with spoon is different than sucking the milk from a teat. But the fact was he didn't have any difficulty at all. He was just enjoy it, excited, and cried as we didn't put the spoon in his mouth quick enough, and even cried to have some more!
He also now able to reach out and grab things, everything, including my hair! Once he wraps his hands around something, he'll study it then put it straight into his mouth. He always excited to see flying objects, such as musical mobile, but everything flying on top of him will make he madly excited. He also can play with his own hands and feet. So cute. One day I realise it's strangely quiet in the bedroom. So I look in, only to discover that he was amusing himself by playing with his toes. He was also wanted to be propped up or held in a sitting position. His back and neck get stronger when then one day I found him sitting without back support on his rocking chair!
I noticed he got more selective about people and surrounding. He used to smile and friendly to everyone he met, and now began to be choosy. We went out to dinner with friends few times just to find him over tired as he was too excited to see new things and couldn't sleep. When a stranger picked him up, he will look, then think, then pout, then cried! (*sigh*)
I am now excited to know what talent he will gain, what surprise he will give, and how big he will grow this month.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Aneh
Beberapa pesan dan peringatan dari teman dan keluarga hari ini di Yahoo Messager hari ini adalah: "Hari ini Rabu Abu lho. Ke Gereja?"Iya, gue tau hari ini memang hari Rabu Abu buat umat Katolik sedunia, tapi sayangnya, kecuali untuk dunia bagian sini, dimana gue berada saat ini. Hari ini bukan hari Rabu Abu buat gue, dan buat umat Katolik di negara ini. Aneh?
Rupanya gereja Katolik di negara ini berteman sangat akrab dengan gereja Ortodoks. Ternyata pula masing-masing gereja menjalani rutinitas gerejaninya berdasarkan kalender yang berbeda. Ternyata lagi, ada berbagai macam kalender yang dipakai manusia sejak jaman dahulu kala. Kalau mau lihat sedikit penjelasannya (yang cukup bikin pusing), silahkan liat di disini dan disini. Singkatnya, kalender yang manusia sedunia pakai secara umum sekarang ini adalah Gregorian Calendar, yang merupakan penyempurnaan dari Julian Calendar yang mulai diperkenalkan Julius Caesar taun 45 BC (before Christ) - sebagai pengganti dari Roman Calendar yang kemudian dipake sampai dengan keluarnya Gregorian Calendar di tahun 1500-an. Gregorian Calender kemudian menjadi kalender umum yang dipakai manusia di dunia. Tetapi entah kenapa, Gereja Ortodoks ngotot mau pake Julian Calendar, sampai sekarang.
Keakraban gereja Katolik (dan Kristen) dan Ortodoks di negara ini menyebabkan mereka bikin perjanjian untuk merayakan Natal berdasarkan Gregorian Calendar yang dijalani umat Katolik dan dunia pada umumnya, dan merayakan Paskah berdasarkan Julian Calendar, yang digunakan gereja Ortodoks.
Jadi dimana dunia bakal ber-paskah ria tanggal 23 Maret, gue bakal baru mulai masa prapaskah - Rabu Abu tanggal 12 Maret, dan ngerayain Paskah tanggal 27 April.
Ya inilah satu lagi keunikan dan keanehan tinggal di negara bagian sini. Seru? Aneh? Yaa.. gak bisa laen selain dijalanin aja. :)
Tapi ada yang lebih aneh lagi. Gak ada hubungannya sama topik rabu abu sih..... ini nih. ;p
Anyway, selamat memulai masa pra-paskah, I hope that all of you have a blessed Lent.
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