Sunday, May 24, 2009

Skin Pressure

It's been months when I have skin problems. First was my hands, then whole body. It gets worse lately. Rashes, spots, itchiness, dry, sore, crack, you name it all. It started to disturb my sleep. I visited dermatologist a few times, used creams and tablets. The diagnosis was allergy to chemical products. I changed all my soaps. Hand and body soap, reduce the amount of cleaning and washing my hands, and use gloves every time I was dishes. But all no use. Went to another doctor, and the diagnosis the same, but she prescribe me other medication. I guess I'm allergic to something new which I don't know of.

What I hate the most is that when the medication is not successful, the doctor would come to the easiest conclusion. That I might be stress and tense.

Both doctors mentioned stress. I hate that word, I don't think I'm stress, I don't think I'm tense. The other doctor recommend me to have at least 2 hour totally only and for myself - everyday.
Having said that, I just realise that I practically had no time for MYSELF since I gave birth. No time, no maid, new maid, no babysitter, have to cook, and million other excuses. I'm talking about time for myself, like shopping ONLY for MYSELF, massage (last massage was 6 months ago), meni/pedi (last pedi was 14 months ago), Yoga/pilates/swim/gym/painting/jewelery classes, etc. I have no ME TIME for more that a year! Everything (time, energy, love, tender, care, etc) is all for the little boy all day and night 24/7. I'm drained!

Still, I'm not sure if this is the cause of my skin problems.

Still, I don't know how to change my lifestyle, make me have my ME TIME, as we are moving out in 6 weeks! I know I will be super-duperly busy and tense in the next few weeks for our move.


Ah well,... just another series of my life....

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

moving out in 6 weeks? where r u heading? cross the globe again? -bams-

Nencee said...

jakarta, dear.